This is a door I do not wish to share. I will open it, But it has been a long time and I have never shared. I don’t know how I will react by letting others in. Tread lightly this is really me.
Breathing quickly I’m standing there
A twigs brakes in the distance echoing I don’t know what direction
I was 10
The car was stuck and we needed sand
Dad, “I know where sand is ”
We had been shoving all morning and it was cold
fingers were numb , but sweat dripped off my forehead
I was bundled from head to toe
We had to go .. I don’t remember were
But we had to go.
The forecast was for 4 to 6
It was more like 10 to 12
“across the street down at the creek ” I said
I was proud I could help
It was fun working with Dad
I cross the street ….shovel and Bucket in hand
I been in the woods before Hunting with Dad
This year we would go for Deer again.
There were deer tracks in the snow 2 maybe 3
Yes, there is sand I brake the ice and fill the bucket full
Another job done will
Dad will be Proud
It’s behind me
A man standing there
But there is something strange
“Wait,” he said
he should not be here
he should be cold
why does he have no clothes
brown boots that’s all
this was not right that’s all
I drop the bucket
shovel poised to fight as best a 10 year old can
He stopped all but his hand
touch me he said
2 steps back I ran
I didn’t understand
you should be here
you shouldn’t be asking this ….your a man
10 feet apart
He did what he came for and then ran
never touching me… how revolting that was
I was little
I watch him go
I never like the snow
why are men like this
I still don’t understand
Why do men force on the weak
Were was superman
I will be superman .. I know I can.
I ran back home
Never to tell …..I was scared as hell.
That day the world grew… I knew it was not safe.
I could not erase what I had seen with my eyes.
….I’m not tiny now and the rage is still within.
one of my favorite songs Hallelujah I need to add to calm me
Just to hear the pure harmony of the word Hallelujah
I’m walking on a journey of self discovery
If any of you have to time to read “MY Vision PAGE“
meaning of the song
1.God be praised (uttered in worship or as an expression of rejoicing).“He is risen! Alleluia!”
1.an utterance of the word “hallelujah” as an expression of worship or rejoicing.